I started smoking about 23 years ago... (Sad, I KNOW) and through out my life time I have tried to quit several times. Some times better than others, and quite frankly the last time was the longest I had EVER lasted. 4 YEARS!!!!
I decided to quit because we were getting serious about trying to conceive again, and just decided one morning that it would be my LAST cigarette, and it was for quite a while. Then, last summer with the move up north, we stayed with my sister for 4 days, and I figured ONE would not hurt... OH HOW WRONG I WAS!!!! Haven't been able to kick it since. Every time I try I turn into a HUGE BEAST (for lack of a better word.. or better yet this being a PG kinda blog.. Bwahahahaha)
Last week, I decided to REALLY stick to my guns, The last thing I want is my daughters remembering a cancer stick in my mouth, and I smoked my LAST one. It has been REALLY hard, especially with all that has been going on in our lives. I have always suffered from depression, and it's been kicking my behind.. (AGAIN I can find a MUCH better word... ) BUT, it's been 14 days,. and I have NOT caved in...
Wish me luck folks, and pray for my family, that one day I just do NOT snap!!!!!
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