The cycle of DOOM!!!! I would get depressed, then eat because I was depressed, gain weight because I binged, then be depressed because I gained, and ate because I was depressed, and so on and so on..
I was addicted to my food, quite frankly I would plan meals days in advance, and EVERYTHING revolved around when and WHAT I was going to eat... AND BOY did I LOVE to eat. I had a special relationship with food, I called it being a "Picky " eater, but NAH!!! That's not really it... The way I always had a "Special" way of eating the things I really enjoyed. To be honest, I still stand by the fact that I didn't eat large portions, it was more the things I chose to eat, and how often I ate. I could chow like it was my last meal, and eat again 15 minutes later, not even being hungry, but being completely unable to say "NO". It was food, I KNEW it was going to be delicious, so I HAD to eat it... and if it was junk food, it was ON!!!
My husband was always trying to lose weight, eat healthy, and I admired his will power, but I think I also hated him for it. I was his saboteur.. My poor enabling hubby, I would be a totally BITCH when he was dieting and miserable (you'd think it was ME NOT eating).
Then one day two summers ago, my gremlins (1 1/2 then) started saying "I'm Hungry" or "French fries" EVERY time we passed those golden arches, and it HIT me... Like a HUGE ton of bricks...
I'm miserable being fat, and I'm taking them down my miserable path WITH me? I KNOW misery loves company, but my love for them was greater, I had to access my direction, divert my path or RUIN them forever. I could not live with myself, if I broke the gremlins..
It was time to do SOMETHING, for them , for my beaten husband, for ME!!!!
I've lost 110lbs (that's like TWO super models right??)
can cross my legs
don't fit in my clothes
down 6 sizes
weigh less than 200lbs
weigh less than my husband
can go a whole day without a nap
make health decisions
don't mind pictures so much
don't yell as much
can keep up with TWO 3 year olds
don't miss the Big Mac
STILL LOVE FOOD, but have a MUCH healthier relationship with it..
AND I LOVE IT!!!!
This my before... I'm the one on the left... bwahahaha (In case there was a doubt)
and this is me one month ago.. I'm the one in the middle.. (WISH I could say I was as skinny as the birthday girl on the right.. bwahahahaha)